Its been years since anything seemed to make any sense. I use to feel this hole inside that all I wanted to do was fill… Is it filled yet? Honest truth is I don't even know. One thing that I do know is that right now I'm okay. And I'm okay with being okay… I've been in the darkest of places in my life and I am no longer at those places and I am thankful every second that I am not. I'm thankful for where my life is right now. And that is a place where I know I have One Good Love.
I wish that it was the love that I hold inside for myself… but it is not… It is the love that I share with another. He's someone that is least expected. People can say what they want about him I won't care. And not because I can't handle the truth or I am young and stupid. It's mainly because I know exactly who he is. And I love every inch of him. All of his faults and imperfections. They don't bother me because they make him who he is… If only he understood just how much he has touched my heart… my life…
Funny thing is that I shouldn't be with him. Not how it was suppose to be. After everything I've been through. All that we have been through. There were moments that I didn't think we were going to get this far. But we are here and I am loving every second of it. I'm not saying that it is perfect cause nothing is. But it is as close as perfect that I think a person can get. He's perfect in my eyes at least.
Its as if its a dream that I wish to never wake from…
I remember the past… the pain, anger, sorrow… Everything that I was going through and its like all those moments never even existed. Ever since he came into my life. As if he's my own personal "stop watch". He saved me from those who were wrong in my life… and above all… myself!
I love you my one good love!
